Dear future Grandchild,

I know we have yet to meet. In-fact, there is no existence to your being as I write this. My kids, one of your parents, are 20, 15 and 14 years old right now and no where near ready for parenthood. So, I have no clue as to when you will read this, or if you ever will but I do know one day in the future you will be here. I think of you often and I have no clue what you even look like yet I envision us doing things together. Seeing myself as a soulful, young, energetic grandma, I know that one day our worlds will collide and you will keep my memory alive. There are so many things I want you to know about me and about our family roots (but you can ask your mom/dad about our roots, trust me, they know πŸ™‚ So, this blog is about me and my hopes, dreams, and thoughts of you.

By now, most of my childhood friends have become grandparents. I will be honest with you, this does not make me feel good but it does make me curious about you. Let me reflect real quick why I say it does not feel good to know that some of my childhood friends are now grandparents. Being that I consider myself youthful, anything that can make me feel older is usually not greeted with a great big embrace πŸ™‚ However, these other peoples grand-babies bring about a curiosity like I have never had before. There are so many questions I think about such as what are you going to look like? Will you resemble me in anyway, physically or spiritually? What color hair will you have and what style will you rock πŸ™‚ What will your journey in life be like? Will I have the opportunity to be a big part of that journey? – I sure hope so.

I am not a psychic or anything on the lines of such but I think I still have about another 5 plus years before it is my turn to become a Grandma. I will be 45 years old or older and to be honest again with you πŸ™‚ I am not all that fond of the title Grandma – for me, it just sounds old and frankly 45 is the new 25 (or so they say) so being called grandma just will not fit – we will have to work out a name I guess πŸ™‚ but rest assure, you will not be calling me grandma. Usually I do not have an issue with titles after-all, I hold plenty titles. I am a daughter, granddaughter, sister, niece, cousin, mother, and aunt. Not one of these titles bother me and mother is my favorite title so you can imagine the confusion I have πŸ™‚ I guess your mom/dad and I will come up with something once we learn of your grand entrance into the womb of your mom – hopefully not my daughter πŸ™‚ at least not for another 20 years or so (just kidding but deep down that is the thought for most parents πŸ™‚ – remember, honesty is everything!

Although the time has not come for your presence, I cannot help but to feel your existence already through one of my kids, your mom or dad – that sounds really strange πŸ™‚ However strange the title grandma or your mom or dad being one of my kids sounds, the truth is, I am very much looking forward to your arrival. But if fore some unseen reason we never get the chance to meet each other just know one thing, you are loved! Unfortunately, there is that possibility of our current positions (me here and you where ever you are right now πŸ™‚ will be reversed and I may be the one deleted from the scene we call life – I wholeheartedly hope this is not the case. However, if it is, I will ask you one favor, please remember me?

One thing you should know about me is that I want so desperately to leave a legacy. Not for me, not to be well know or anything like that rather for my family, for you. I think it is so important to know where you come from and knowing your family regardless of in the flesh or through memory, is one sure way of knowing your roots. I suppose there are many people out there that do not really concern themselves with understanding their ancestors – I just hope your not one of them because I really want you to know me and keep me alive. You see, I do not want to be forgotten. Nor do I want for you or your parents, my kids, to ever be forgotten. The only way to keep us alive is by knowing us and sharing our lives with your kids so they can do the same.

I will wrap this up with the hopes of you coming across this one day in the future. To think about it, it would be pretty cool for you one day, O’ say in like 20 plus years from now πŸ™‚ to come across this and share it with me – I would really like that by the way πŸ™‚ But if I am not here, hopefully your mom or dad has spoken well about me πŸ™‚ and you can also go check on the internet with a simple google – I have a public Facebook (social media site πŸ˜‰ and some other things floating around where you can kind of get to know who I was. I wish you well and I love you! Until we meet – Amy, your mom or dads mom, aka grandma (remember, we will work on that title πŸ™‚



Clear Perception on Trump’s Agenda

On Monday my three kids and myself took a 600 mile long road trip just so we can attend Donald Trumps Rally in Youngstown, Ohio. To begin with, I just want to say that I am still an undecided voter and my decision is split between Hilary Clinton and Donald Trump. I went to this rally because for the last year (at times it feels like ten years) or so Donald Trump has been dominating the media and I wanted to find out for myself why. Now, I am not sure if I became interested in Trump solely on his message or because he has been crammed down my throat for some time. However, regardless of why or how I grew interested in Donald Trump the fact is there is this nagging, at times irritating nudge I feel to have to understand his message more. Monday morning I read that a rally would be taking place in Ohio. Being that I have been craving a road trip for a while now, this just seemed to be a great opportunity to take that road trip and hear for myself what Donald Trump has to say. So, by 10:30 A.M. I was picking my two younger kids up at school, had my twenty year old with me and off to Ohio we went.

I have to say, the entire experience was awesome and I am so glad my kids were able to be a part of it. The Youngstown Ohio rally went very well with no drama for the cameras. I am not going to write any more about the rally itself because my focus here is the clear message Donald Trump is delivering to the American people, to us. Also, I am not going to bother writing on my thoughts on his message but I am definitely going to share my perception of Trump’s message. It is up to each of us to decide if his message is what we want or need as a nation and as an individual. I can say this, even though Donald Trump does not directly say word for word what I understand his message to be, his message is clear and I am simply putting it out there in laymen’s terms.

Since Donald Trump repeats himself often we know part of his message is that he is a Business Man. You can hear him refer to himself as such over and over again. Last night on CNN after the poll results were in, Trump in his press conference said what we need to succeed in money, he even ended that sentence with, “I hate to say it”. (I am not going to cite this blog but you can find this online) Right here Donald Trump is letting us know that his main objective is to get America rich again. He has bragged nearly every time he speaks about how much money he has and how great of a Business Man he is. Another thing he keeps saying is how he knows people and will hire the right people to do the right job. With just these three phrases Trump’s message is very clear to me.

Donald Trump being the Business Man he is, intends on running America in a businesslike manner. He explains in detail of how he will conduct foreign trade and other factors that will keep and make money in America. Trump does not pretend to know everything about running the White House therefore, when asked how he will preform a job he knows nothing about, he says that he knows the right people to do the right jobs. We do not really hear Donald Trump claim to know everything there is to know about being President of the United States. In-fact, he is pretty honest about not being a politician, in a plentiful way he reminds us that he is a Business Man not a politician. He seems to have three main focuses: Trade, Immigration and Military Strength. In a nut shell Trump’s stance on presidency is to be a strong military, super rich, non-Muslim, Β force to be reckoned with. Power, Money and Fame – because Donald Trump whether you like him or not, has grown into an International known name and character.

I still remain undecided in my vote and I hope to attend a rally of Hilary Clinton’s in the coming months. But, I have been able to think more about Donald Trumps intentions and goals. Sadly Trump is correct in saying that in order to be great again we need money to do that. Since I heard him say this last night I keep thinking about it because deep down I agree with him. Yet, there is no clarity on Trump’s thoughts on American allies, education, health care, pay scale, all the personal things that matter to me as a human being. So I remain split. If the country does in-fact become as rich as Trump suggests it will then I know that it will or at least should benefit me in someway. Another thing I keep thinking about is the possibility of being at odds with many other countries. This is very scary and a real possibility if Donald Trump becomes president after-all, his goal in building the strongest military is not for nothing.

Well, I guess I will continue to listen to all five candidates currently running with the hopes of connecting enough to one so that I can vote. The last thing I want to do is not be fully satisfied with the candidate I am voting for because I ran out of time thinking of my choice. I will admit that I have not been a fan of Ted Cruz however, he has also been making some great claims for a better America. Sanders with his free education and health care sounds pretty awesome too. I don’t know, this presidential year has proven to be a difficult one for me to make decision on a nominee. The next few weeks I will be reading some other WordPress blogs that engage in the pleasant conversation of our agreements and disagreements of the candidates. Hopefully reading some of your stuff out there I can gain more insight on the people running for president to this great country we all call home.

Donald Trump’s rally in Youngstown, Ohio.





I was told once by a friend that a person can drive themselves insane when attempting to understand certain things. Indeed, this may be true for some however, I feel that if I am able to think of asking complex questions then I must be able to find a way to understand what I am seeking. Since death has been a major thought of mine for a good many of years, I am very comfortable researching educated opinions on the subject. It is just so important for me to understand what happens to our very essence when we die. In this life I have three amazing children two boys and a girl ages 20, 15 & 14 and my love for them is immeasurable. This love is something that I want to have with me forever so finding acceptable theories on what happens to us when we die is extremely important for me because I just cannot accept that this love, this bond, is only for a short time.

Science suggests that we are made mostly of energy particles. Elementary school teaches that energy is eternal – no beginning and no end. If we are made mostly of energy, then that amount of our being must also be eternal – having no beginning and no end. But what element is there about us that can be measured by energy and continue after our life here ceases to exist? My search engine results prove time and time again that it is our conscious that survives death. Quantum Physics may help in understanding this a little bit more and better than I can explain it. But here is where things get murky and tricky, the brain although widely studied, remains the most misunderstood organ we consume.

Philosophers have been debating the mind and brain argument for a very long time asking the question, Are the mind and brain one entity or two separate entities? Neuroscientist Mario Beauregard of the University of Montreal suggests that β€œthe mind lives outside the physiology of the brain even when the brain dies, the mind has the ability to be aware” (Barron, 2009). I have to be honest here, Near Death Experiences (NDEs) is an extremely popular term that keeps showing itself in my research. NDEs appears to be the focal point when investigating the brain and what they attempt to study is consciousness.

There is a web like connection that emerges when I research anything on death and consciousness, particularly when I do not put the two terms into the same search phrase. It is safe to suggest that there is a popular belief that in some way the brain or perhaps the mind (if it is a separate body from the brain) and consciousness are related to death and the million-dollar debate, β€œIs there life after death?”. Before I began to conduct my personal research on death I use to think that maybe the heart held the key to eternal life. I was thinking because in the heart is where we feel love and that love is what continues after our time here comes to an end. I am beginning to see where everything begins with a thought including love, we must think it in order to feel it in our hearts.

Being that I do believe in a God, living eternity in a place we may all know as heaven does give me hope. However, due to me being an individual who demands proof or as close to proof as one can get, seeking outside of my spiritual thoughts is a must. If I don’t then I will simply accept religious doctrine in a sense and not seek for the truth on my own. In our humanly form death is definite and death is permanent yet we have religions and branches of science telling us that there is in-fact an eternal element about us. I am fully aware that any information we have on our consciousness and or eternal factor is based on theories and cannot in no way be proven. However, there are scientific findings that we simply cannot ignore that pertain to our life after death and again, the mass of these findings are in our brain, more specifically our pineal gland.

In 1641, a French Philosopher Rene Descartes offered a theory where the mind was made of an extremely light and delegate substance, a fluid, that was stored in the brain. When Descartes had the opportunity to dissect a human brain he found a small single lump at the center of the brain, the pineal body and hinted that this area of the brain must be the gateway to the soul (Graziano, 2015). Of course we have individuals in science, medicine and religion saying that the pineal gland has nothing to do with the soul, if there is a soul at all. While making this claim they in return have no solid explanation on what exactly the pineal gland is and what exactly it does.

Professor Robert Lanza of Wake Forrest University School of Medicine in North Carolina really puts things in perspective for me when he says, β€œas humans we believe in death because we are taught we die, or more specifically, our consciousness associates life with bodies and we know that bodies die”. Lanza argues that space and time are tools of the mind that are basically man made. However, if a person can accept that space and time are mere mental constructs then death exists without linear boundaries (Woollason, 2013). For a good majority of my adult life I have thought of time and space as being unrealistic, at least in the way we think of it. Of course I know that we have some sort of time such as night and day however, I am not so sure about any other frame of time. Calendars were invented by man as was a clock so in all honesty the only time we really can be sure of is the difference between day time and night time.

OK, so let me get back to the subject of death. I know that I have written about several schools of thought and that perhaps this blog may have jumped around a bit. Sorry about that but there is just so much to get into when discussing death that I just had to get some information out there that I find fundamental when trying to grasp a deep understanding of death. With all of the information I have come across I have brewed up my own theory on death and it is as follows. There is no question that our bodies decay once we greet death so the body itself has nothing to do with our eternal being. However, there may be an area in the brain, the pineal gland, that allows some part of us (our conscious?) to escape an earthly death and enter into another realm. Just what that realm is or where it is can be a matter of how we lived our lives here – just a thought. Once this aspect of us, most likely our conscious, exits our physical entity it then carries all of the β€œstuff” our conscious is believed to obtain. Things like memories are all part of our consciousness and if it is our conscious that lives on then all of the memories we stored as a living human being is still alive only on a different dimension of living entities.

My hopes for this blog is to just get us thinking about life and the afterlife. I do not claim to be any guru of the sort, just a normal woman who thinks and cares about this life and life after this one We endure so many joys as well as hardships in life, it just does not make any sense to me that these are all in vain. Life proves to be a big learning experience that includes a great deal of thoughts and feelings. Ask yourself this, β€œdoes it really make sense that we would go through our life, engage in all of what we engage in, learn all of what we learn, love all of what and who we love, just for it all to cease once we die?” For me, the answer is simple and short, no it does not make sense. I hope you enjoyed reading my blog and I will be back next week talking about Celebrities being obscure to the real world.








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Woollason, V. (2013, November 14). Quantum Physics Proves That There IS an Afterlife, Claims Scientists. Retrieved February 28, 2016, from