I know we have yet to meet. In-fact, there is no existence to your being as I write this. My kids, one of your parents, are 20, 15 and 14 years old right now and no where near ready for parenthood. So, I have no clue as to when you will read this, or if you ever will but I do know one day in the future you will be here. I think of you often and I have no clue what you even look like yet I envision us doing things together. Seeing myself as a soulful, young, energetic grandma, I know that one day our worlds will collide and you will keep my memory alive. There are so many things I want you to know about me and about our family roots (but you can ask your mom/dad about our roots, trust me, they know 🙂 So, this blog is about me and my hopes, dreams, and thoughts of you.
By now, most of my childhood friends have become grandparents. I will be honest with you, this does not make me feel good but it does make me curious about you. Let me reflect real quick why I say it does not feel good to know that some of my childhood friends are now grandparents. Being that I consider myself youthful, anything that can make me feel older is usually not greeted with a great big embrace 🙂 However, these other peoples grand-babies bring about a curiosity like I have never had before. There are so many questions I think about such as what are you going to look like? Will you resemble me in anyway, physically or spiritually? What color hair will you have and what style will you rock 🙂 What will your journey in life be like? Will I have the opportunity to be a big part of that journey? – I sure hope so.
I am not a psychic or anything on the lines of such but I think I still have about another 5 plus years before it is my turn to become a Grandma. I will be 45 years old or older and to be honest again with you 🙂 I am not all that fond of the title Grandma – for me, it just sounds old and frankly 45 is the new 25 (or so they say) so being called grandma just will not fit – we will have to work out a name I guess 🙂 but rest assure, you will not be calling me grandma. Usually I do not have an issue with titles after-all, I hold plenty titles. I am a daughter, granddaughter, sister, niece, cousin, mother, and aunt. Not one of these titles bother me and mother is my favorite title so you can imagine the confusion I have 🙂 I guess your mom/dad and I will come up with something once we learn of your grand entrance into the womb of your mom – hopefully not my daughter 🙂 at least not for another 20 years or so (just kidding but deep down that is the thought for most parents 🙂 – remember, honesty is everything!
Although the time has not come for your presence, I cannot help but to feel your existence already through one of my kids, your mom or dad – that sounds really strange 🙂 However strange the title grandma or your mom or dad being one of my kids sounds, the truth is, I am very much looking forward to your arrival. But if fore some unseen reason we never get the chance to meet each other just know one thing, you are loved! Unfortunately, there is that possibility of our current positions (me here and you where ever you are right now 🙂 will be reversed and I may be the one deleted from the scene we call life – I wholeheartedly hope this is not the case. However, if it is, I will ask you one favor, please remember me?
One thing you should know about me is that I want so desperately to leave a legacy. Not for me, not to be well know or anything like that rather for my family, for you. I think it is so important to know where you come from and knowing your family regardless of in the flesh or through memory, is one sure way of knowing your roots. I suppose there are many people out there that do not really concern themselves with understanding their ancestors – I just hope your not one of them because I really want you to know me and keep me alive. You see, I do not want to be forgotten. Nor do I want for you or your parents, my kids, to ever be forgotten. The only way to keep us alive is by knowing us and sharing our lives with your kids so they can do the same.
I will wrap this up with the hopes of you coming across this one day in the future. To think about it, it would be pretty cool for you one day, O’ say in like 20 plus years from now 🙂 to come across this and share it with me – I would really like that by the way 🙂 But if I am not here, hopefully your mom or dad has spoken well about me 🙂 and you can also go check on the internet with a simple google – I have a public Facebook (social media site 😉 and some other things floating around where you can kind of get to know who I was. I wish you well and I love you! Until we meet – Amy, your mom or dads mom, aka grandma (remember, we will work on that title 🙂